Wednesday, January 23, 2008

For and Against










































































































































Against Stinky Dofu For Jiaozi
Against Pork For Sheep
Against Jelly For Peanutbutter
Against Pinakbet For Sinagang
Against Beer For Tea
Against Intoxicants For Social Lubricants
Against Bars For Cafes
Against Fast food For Xiao chi
Against Supermarket For Out-door Markets
Against Couches For Pillows and Carpets
Agaisnt the Mass Produced For the Antiques
Against Cable TV For Reading
Against Sentimentalists For Stoics
Against the Zealots For the Astute
Against the Braveheart-types For the Machiavellian
Against the Free Spirit For the Stern Skeptic and Believer
Against Minimalism For the Ornate
Against the Crude For the Refine
Against the Avant-Guard For the Old-Guard
Against Jackson Pollack For Giorgio Morandi
Against Limp Biskit For Third Eye Blind
Against Hilary Clinton For Barack Obama
Against Social Conservative Republicans For Fiscal Conservative Republicans
Against the Taliban For the Ottomans
Against the Philippines For Maharlika
Against Destruction For Preservation
Against driving a Car For taking the Bus
Against Gas guzzlers For Hybrids
Against Suburban Sprawl For Urban Renewal
Against Capitalism For Environmentalism
Against the Romantic For the Practical
Against the Fleeting For the Long Term
Against the Feminist For the Feminine
Against the End For the Beginning

Birth of a Nomad


I came out screaming from my mom's womb at the year when the Rooster wore a Dog's mask, an ominous year that would profoundly shape the course of my fate. At age eight, my parents cut off our roots from the Philippines, buried my identity, and compelled me to wear a mask as we fled from Manila bound for the Land of Opportunity. Materially we prospered and culturally we adopted to our new home; but I never felt secure about my identity and by the time I reached high-school, the mask that I wore started to itch. "This was not me," I repeatedly thought, "not me at all." I kept itching and pulling on the mask until it finally came off. I publicly continued to wear the mask. for many years but, privately, I held the mask in my hands, contemplating on what to do. Without it, I was nothing. For years people have known me as this facade. To discard the mask was to destroy the identity that I had created since my family left Manila and to unearth my former identity no longer was a viable option. The former was just as strange and fake as the mask that I then held in my hands. I had two choices: continue to hide behind the mask or discard the mask and face the unknown truth that lay beneath it? In the end, I put the mask away, packed my bags, and set off to find who I am.

I am a nomad by destiny, not by choice. Culturally, people like myself have been uprooted several generations ago. Imperial and spiritual conquests, war, carnage, treachery, betrayal, social and economic upheavals, misfortunes and so on all contributed to the destruction of my sense of self and belonging. I am roaming the earth in search of culture and values that I would like to create and built upon and call my own. It is within this nomadic jihad for culture where I hope to become who I am.